I've made a pact that I won't succumb to this feeling anymore some times back but today, I fall hard on my knees.
It didn't feel right, today.
The heart acted insanely, as if something was going to break at any times.
Shoulders were so heavy, as if some burden was placed upon them
Body would not want to move around, as if it was hiding something.
The chest was grumpy, as if there were squirrels jumping gleefully in it.
However, I persevered!
and pushed through the unfathomable feeling.
But the heart wants what the heart wants.
It was tonight that I had come to a closure to this absurd feeling.
I was rummaging through the desk and randomly picked my planner for last year.
As I leaf pages by pages, smirking and grinning to what had happened last year, I was struck by what was written on what happened today, one year ago.
I realized I had fall in love with you.
This is what I penned in the planner
"OMG, you're everywhere Sunshine!"
I think I love you
It was today that I realized you're not a silly crush.
It was today that I realized I fall for you head over heel.
It was today that I realized my life would be different.
It was today that I started hoping and waiting.
But those what happened last year.
It's been a year.
And my love towards you have never dwindled a bit, I fear it's getting stronger.
It's been a year.
And I have loved and still loving you.
It's been a year.
And I am still painting flowers for you.
It's been a year.
And I still look like a joke.
It's been a year.
And I still can't consume the idea of you having someone's else.
It's been a year.
And I wish this day won't happen.
It's a been a year.
A freaking fucking year!
p.s. This sucks more than vampires suck blood! :'(
