Monday, January 9, 2012

Painted Dream I17I

I was bottled up with anger and devastation. The thought that you might actually toy with my heart kept bombarding my mind, trying to knock my conscious down.

I needed to avenge my feelings.
I needed to pay back for what you’ve done.
I needed to prove to you that you just couldn’t break my heart and get away with it easily.
I was determined and unwavering.
I just needed my revenge or I won’t be at ease.
This heart kept on racing, pounding frantically every time the thought of you decided to sojourn my mind.
For a closure, I just needed retribution.

I swore that I wasn’t going to be attached with you either emotionally or physically.

If it’s a fling game you wanted, worry not sayang, I’ll serve it to you cold and fresh.

I made a truce with myself that I was going to make you feel special and one of a kind. I was going to plant the belief that you had me on my knees, willing to sacrifice my life for you. I was going to make you belief that I was your slave for love because once you had those planted in your conscious mind; it would be easier to tear you apart.

I was going to serve you with the taste of your own game.

p.s. You shouldn’t have toyed with my feelings because they were all genuine.

The Lost Words I9I

Bilamana aku seringkali
tersipu-sipu malu
merah padam
kedua pipiku
lewat terpandang akan
profile picture BBM mu,

Harus kamu tahu
aku ini sedang
suka sama kamu
sedang asyik
di buai rindu

Usah kamu ragu
aku ini memang sedang
mabuk sama kamu

p.s. Ini puisi terdesak, desperate mahu perhatian. 

Sunday, January 8, 2012

Painted Dream I16I

You know something Acad?
Your Sayang has been awfully and continuously flirting with me.
What a sweet talker this person is.
Your Sayang actually asked if we could be an item. Could you believe that?
I haven’t answered it yet, I wanna know your say in this.
Should I say yes?
I’m sorry but I couldn’t help it.
When your Sayang talks, sugar pours out of the mouth and it mencurah-curah ke ladang gandum lalu jadilah koko krunch.
Kau faham kan?
I’m stuck in between and I hate this feeling.
I don’t want to disappoint you because I know the affection you harbour towards this person.
But I don’t know what to do either.


How could you do this to me?
I told you many times I like you, in fact I have told you countless-ly I love you.
Is that hard to understand?
Please if you don’t like me you don’t have to treat me like I’m your freaking boyfriend!
What you do is making me consume the idea that we are an item.
A happy couple.
The fuck with all those good night kisses and wishes; they were all fake.
 You are fake!


Sayang kenapa macam ni?
Acad kenapa dengan you ni?
You buat I sedih tau.
Jangan la macam ni.
Kita kan kawan.
Please jangan macam ni.

p.s. Kawan? Kau kata aku ni kawan? After all those shitty ideas and hopes you shoved into my mind. Kawan my arse! 

Tuesday, January 3, 2012

The Lost Words I8I

I miss us.

p.s. Agaknya bila perasaan akan bisa berputik? 

Monday, January 2, 2012


Why hello there 2012,
Surprise me
as I'm going to leave you unexpected.

So yeah 2011,
Myriads of memories
you too shall be left unattended.

p.s. Happy New Year everyone.