Thursday, September 29, 2011

Letting Go

banyak sudah cara aku lakukan,
banyak sudah jalan aku usahakan,

kalau mahu di kira air mata yang aku titiskan,
tidak mungkin bisa engkau guna tempayan untuk tadahkan,

tapi hati ini,
degil sungguh!
bodoh sungguh! 

tidak mahu ia untuk melepaskan 
kau jauh-jauh,

tidak kira betapa sakit,
tidak kira betapa perit,

tidak pernah sesekali ia berhenti
untuk mengingati,
insan istimewa yang pernah
ia sayangi.

p.s. Letting go is difficult when one isn't ready. And yes I am not ready to let you go. 

Sunday, September 18, 2011

Guilty Pleasure

Do me a favor, listen to this will you?

Because he asked the fans to share this.

p.s. I turned gay for like 3 minutes.

Saturday, September 17, 2011

If I left you a Suicide Note

If I left you a suicide note, 
would you bother?

If I left you a suicide note,
would you flinch even for an inch?

If I left you a suicide note,
would you mourn for me?

If I left you a suicide note,
would you see me differently? 

If I left you a suicide note,
would you love me tenderly?

If I left you a suicide note,
would you hold my hands dearly?

If I left you a suicide note,
would you kiss my lips?

If I left you suicide note,
would you care?
would you even notice it's there? 

p.s. would you? 

Friday, September 16, 2011

Painted Dream I11I

I was a total silent in the car, externally. I didn’t neither move nor flinch. Intrinsically, a tornado of emotions was stirring viciously. I wanted to scream my lungs out and tell the whole world that you were in my car. I wanted to bang my head on the wall as a confirmation that it wasn’t a dream. It was too good to be true. You were exactly sitting beside me.

Your sweet scent wafted through the car’s air conditioner.  The shirts and the jeans you donned fit you faultlessly. Your hair was dressed in a way that it looked specially done by a professional hair-dresser. Your distinguished strut was very poised and model-like. Your smile, it just blew me away. It’s like being shot by a gun in the head at point-blank; it was inexplicably spellbinding but of course in a good way. Your piercing wolf-like eyes sharply glowed and exuded luminous radiance.

The moment you cracked open the car’s door and rest your body on the seat, you took a glimpse at my face and sheepishly smiled. That smile ruthlessly killed me.

Wow you actually listen to me.

Excuse me?

The first time we met at the workshop, you had eyeliner on one of your eyes. Remember I said it looks tacky and..

And I said I’ll use it on both eyes for this day.

Yeah, it’s flattering. I like it better. Way much better.

p.s. you janganlah pakai eyeliner sebelah mata jek, Nampak macam you kena tumbuk ngan orang. Nanti kita keluar sama2 jangan pakai camtu eh?