tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3285651455550973862024-03-05T07:52:12.070-08:00The ExistentialistAdam Arshadhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03372778296377168427noreply@blogger.comBlogger188125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-328565145555097386.post-83251367941845744102013-11-27T21:09:00.000-08:002013-11-27T21:09:01.997-08:00Selamat Hari Lahir<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">Happy birthday Arshad. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">How old are you again? </span><br />
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<span style="color: red; font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">p.s. Really, I have no idea what my age is. </span>Adam Arshadhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03372778296377168427noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-328565145555097386.post-12533730475594199632013-02-13T23:22:00.001-08:002013-07-16T12:47:33.369-07:00[24] Papa, Don't Preach<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">You preach of love, </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">of life, </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">of future</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">and things in the past</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">Yet, you yourself </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">are bitter, </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">more bitter than a bar of dark chocolates, </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">less bitter than perhaps</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">the calling of death, </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">Worst, </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">you linger in the valley</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">of the oblivion,</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">pretending that you are </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">some soul of an optimist, </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">who stands by your own</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">view of principles</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">that disregard the existence </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">of some people; </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">worthy of your love. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">"Poor unfortunate soul</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">in pain, in need"</span><br />
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<span style="color: red; font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">p.s. Actions always speak louder than words</span><br />
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<br />Adam Arshadhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03372778296377168427noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-328565145555097386.post-42647874689916656762013-01-21T11:29:00.002-08:002013-07-16T12:46:48.958-07:00[23] Shit Happens<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">What would you do when desperation knocks on your door and steered you out of your wits and turned you helpless, hopeless and hapless? </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">Well some people choose to walk away. </span></div>
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<span style="color: red; font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">p.s. Words make no sense any more. </span></div>
Adam Arshadhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03372778296377168427noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-328565145555097386.post-63806484308186388452012-11-18T09:31:00.000-08:002012-11-18T09:31:12.662-08:00[22] Neon II<div style="text-align: start;">
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<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;"><span style="line-height: 18px;">[sambungan dari Neon, entri ke 16]</span></span></div>
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<span style="background-color: white; font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif; line-height: 18px; text-align: justify;"><i>Malap</i></span></div>
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<span style="background-color: white; font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif; line-height: 18px; text-align: justify;">Cahaya neon yang menyinari bangku serta sebahagian taman permainan itu makin malap cahayanya. Malam pula makin pekat dan gelap. Sudah lama bangku itu terbiar kosong, sejak kau mula berhenti dari mendongak langit mengira bintang yang berkelip samar. Malam itu langit bersinar terang bermandikan cahaya bintang dan bersuluhkan cahaya bulan. Ada bulan bertemankan bintang, bersama menyinar terang pekat malam yg hitam dan gelap. Namun sepi masih lagi setia, duduk dibangku membunuh perasaan bahagia. </span></div>
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<span style="background-color: white; line-height: 18px; text-align: justify;"><i>Resah</i></span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;"><span style="line-height: 18px;">Satu perasaan tidak enak dapat aku rasakan sedang berkampung dalam hati. Seumpama satu keluarga rama-rama yang sedang enak berkelah dalam jasad aku ini. Kita sudah lama tidak ketemu, berkomunikasi pula sangat jarang. Aku rindu. Tapi rindu yang dirasa terpaksa aku pendam disudut hati yang semakin perlahan degupannya. </span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;"><span style="line-height: 18px;"><i>Lambat</i></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;"><span style="line-height: 18px;">Kau tiba lambat malam itu. Kebiasaannya kau mesti duduk bersandar mendongak langit dibangku. Tapi sudah lama bangku itu dibiarkan kosong, tidak berteman. Aku seakan faham bangku itu jika ia punya perasaan. Kedengaran bunyi tapak sandal kau mengetuk lantai. Aku toleh kebelakang. Kau sedang menghala kearahku. Ini kali pertama aku lihat kau dalam masa dua bulan. Sudah begitu banyak yang berubah. Kau senyum. Dan aku langsung tersipu malu. Aku suka perasaan celaka jatuh cinta. Ia buat kau ibarat sang penggila yang sudah tidak dapat membeza apa-apa. Ini perasaan bahagia yang celaka. </span></span><br />
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<span style="line-height: 18px;"><i>Senyap</i></span></span><br />
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<span style="line-height: 18px;">Kau duduk dan membiarkan sepi menggamit suasana malam. Pelukan angin yang dapat aku rasa menggigit tulang menambah rasa tidak enak yang makin tumbuh mekar dalam jasad. Aku tidak mahu membuka bicara walau aku punya sejuta kata yang mahu aku lafazkan serta sejuta rasa yang aku mahu zahirkan. Biar kau yang memecah kesunyian malam dan menghalau sepi, si pembunuh rasa dalam diam. Laungan octave si penghisap darah aku biarkan saja berlegar dikepala. </span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;"><span style="line-height: 18px;"><br /></span></span><span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;"><span style="line-height: 18px;"><i>Pecah</i></span></span><br />
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<span style="line-height: 18px;">Lerai segala bila kau kata kau sudah punya pengganti si dia. Langsung mata aku berkaca tapi cuba aku kuatkan, terpaksa menjadi kuat supaya aku tidak mencemar suasana bahagia kau berlipurlara perihal bersama dia dengan air mata aku yang murah dan hina. Kau sedang bahagia sehingga ternyata jelas terpancar dari wajah kau, bersinar mengalahkan cahaya neon. Sunyi malam dipecahkan dengan suara rancak kau berbicara bahagia tentang si dia yang kau sedang gila dan puja. Bintang dan bulan seakan berpakat malam ini, bersinar terang menyuluh ke muka kau yang sedang berseri dan bercahaya, bagai sedang menelan dan mengecap rasa bahagia, rasa bila hati dimiliki.</span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;"><span style="line-height: 18px;"><i>Sakit</i></span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;"><span style="line-height: 18px;">Nafas aku mogok secara tiba-tiba. Hati pula makin berat degupannya. Perlahan-lahan aku toleh melihat kau sedang khayal bercerita cinta. Seumpama sedang berada dipentas teater yang gah, dibantu oleh teknik pencahayaan yang halus dan gaya penceritaan yang tajam memberikan imej estetika persis sang arjuna cinta yang sedang bermonodrama; dengan hanya aku sebagai penonton yang setia fokus dan teruja. Ak teruja melihat kau bercerita. Aku teruja melihat kau bahagia. Pergi celaka dengan rasa sakit ini, jika kau diumpama racun, kan aku teguk sampai titisan terakhir. Kerna rasa sakit ini, rasa celaka ini bisa bikin aku bahagia. </span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;"><span style="line-height: 18px;">~</span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;"><span style="line-height: 18px;">Tidak pernah sekali aku salahkan kau kerna aku tahu, aku dan kau hanyalah satu cerita fiksyen. Mana mungkin aku bisa dan layak berdiri sebelah kau, memegang tangan kau, mengucup dahi kau, berkongsi nafas kau, menanam rasa cinta di bibir kau, merasa bahagia bersama kau kerna kita tidak mampu diibaratkan dengan apa-apa atau siapa-siapa. Bezanya bagai infiniti. Mungkin sebab itu aku lebih rela melihat kau bermesra dengan hilai tawa seseorang dari bersahabat rapat dengan kemurungan. </span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;"><span style="line-height: 18px;"><i>Jadi benarkan aku untuk terus mencinta kau. </i></span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;"><span style="line-height: 18px;"><i>Boleh sayang? </i></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: red; font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;"><span style="line-height: 18px;">p.s. Masih setia menunggu bahagia tiba. </span></span><br />
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Adam Arshadhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03372778296377168427noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-328565145555097386.post-79423249525748058752012-10-27T07:16:00.000-07:002012-10-27T07:16:37.466-07:00[21] Satu Kotak Hitam<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">Kotak rahsia hitam yang dia simpan lama</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">perlahan-lahan dia buka</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">Ada satu objek merah dipenuhi</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">lumuran darah</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">Dia ambil </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">dan tatang</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">perlahan-lahan</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">Dengan penuh kasih sayang</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">dan hati-hati </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">Objek itu berupa organ hatinya </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">yang berdegup kencang</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">berselimutkan jari-jarinya</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">Kencang degupannya</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">bak nadi normal</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">Tapi sayang,</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">Ia tidak punya apa-apa perasaan</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">Kembali dia letak objek itu</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">dalam kotak rahsia hitam,</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">untuk dia simpan. </span><br />
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<span style="color: red; font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">p.s. Apa guna punya hati tapi tidak mampu beremosi? </span>Adam Arshadhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03372778296377168427noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-328565145555097386.post-34524805629155050202012-10-27T06:59:00.000-07:002012-10-27T07:18:33.823-07:00[20] Shut your mind. Listen to me.<div style="text-align: justify;">
<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">Once, not a long time ago, I experienced the most aching pain that nailed me to the ground. It seems a bit crass that this is perhaps the most aching pain yet it inflicts no physical hazard to its victim. It strikes at the core of the human body;</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">Heart. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">Heartache.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">I am certain that most people experience that once or twice in their life. Or perhaps a couple of heartbreaks -depending on the capability of your brain and your ability to distinguish love related issues- along the way of finding the purpose of one's life and most importantly the person you are destined to be with. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">Heartbreak's a bitch. It gives you a stinging heartache, the agonizing pain as if, as cliche as it sounds, your heart's been ripped off of you body. As if you receive multiple jabs to your heart and you can't help but to comply in a docile way as if you are drugged yet you can feel the agonizing pain. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">Heartbreak is subjective. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">And I shall leave you here to ponder on that. </span><br />
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<span style="color: red; font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">p.s. Different people, different heart, different story. </span></div>
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Adam Arshadhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03372778296377168427noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-328565145555097386.post-21499874877307363942012-10-06T21:52:00.000-07:002012-10-27T07:18:11.668-07:00[19] Secebis Nota untuk Tuhan<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">Hi, </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">Aku tahu aku kecil ya Allah,</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">Aku tahu aku milik kau ya Allah, </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">Aku tahu,</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">Tolong aku ya Allah,</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">Aku malu,</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">Aku segan dengan kau,</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">Nota ini salah satu alternatif untuk aku memberitahu kau,</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">Nota kecil yang aku karang dengan penuh harapan dan perasaan, </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">Kerna sememangnya aku malu dan segan</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">untuk bangun mengangkat, </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">menadah tangan. </span><br />
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<span style="color: red; font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">p.s. Aku segan padamu. Banyak yang mahu aku cerita dan kongsikan. </span>Adam Arshadhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03372778296377168427noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-328565145555097386.post-38781973559405017002012-09-02T09:33:00.000-07:002012-10-27T07:17:49.853-07:00[18] Orchestra Cinta Sang Pari-Pari Kayangan. <div style="text-align: justify;">
<i><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">[Petikan mellow gitar sebagai pembukaan, mungkin bunyi vokal gemersik seorang wanita bersuara alto sayup kedengaran ala pianissimo]</span></i></div>
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<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">Kisahkan aku pada cerita Sang Pari-pari Kayangan yang turun demi untuk berkongsi perasaan cinta yang membuak-buak dalam dirinya, </span><span style="font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif;">Pada manusia yang hatinya sudah hitam, </span><span style="font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif;">Dari hari ke hari makin gelap, </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">Terisi dengan perasan -</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">benci,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">iri, </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">cemburu, </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">khianat, </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">Penuh dengan kepura-puraan, hipokrasi dan materialistik</span></div>
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<i><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">[Perlahan-lahan gesekan cello masuk mengiringi bunyi gitar dan suara vokal alto yang masih lagi dalam pianissimo]</span></i></div>
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<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">Sang Pari-pari yang suci hatinya mahu memutihi segala kehitaman, dan mahu mencerahi segala kegelapan. Kerana Sang Pari-pari tidak mampu melihat kebinatangan manusia, yang padanya masih bisa untuk diselamatkan,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">Dengan cinta yang ada pada hatinya,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">Dengan sayang yang ada pada tangan kanannya,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">Dan dengan kasih pada tangan kirinya,</span></div>
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<i><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">[BEAT. Hanya bunyi suara vokal alto si gadis, kali ini dengan dinamik yang lain, dari pianissimo, tukar ke piano. Musik kembali bergema]</span></i></div>
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<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">Mahu dia melihat umat manusia berbahagia dikalangan mereka tanpa ada cacat cela,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">Tanpa ada tamak haloba,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">Tanpa ada adu domba,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">Tanpa ada iri hati,</span></div>
<div style="text-align: justify;">
<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">Tanpa ada negativiti,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;"><br /></span></div>
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<i><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">[Gitar dibunyikan dengan not2 suspense. Begitu juga cello. Vokal wanita alto bertukar dari piano ke staccato. Di iringi bunyi drum satu persatu]</span></i></div>
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<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;"><br /></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">Jadi kisahkan juga pada aku tentang cerita Sang Pari-pari Kayangan yang turun untuk berkongsi perasaan cinta yang membuka-buak dalam dirinya. </span><span style="font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif;">Kisahkan bagaimana rakus sang manusia menelan Pari-pari Kayangan bagi kepuasan mereka. Bagaimana Sang Pari-pari tersungkur di medan yang ia cipta untuk mereka. Bagaimana Sang Pari-pari melihat impiannya di pijak dan di makan tanpa rasa belas. Bagaimana Sang Pari-pari menghembus nafasnya mengorban diri untuk manusia durjana ibarat serigala yang laparkan jiwa. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><br /></span></div>
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<i><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">[Vokal wanita alto dinamik forte, ikut bunyi musik. Musik suspense bertukar perlahan-lahan menjadi mellow. Rujukan: Sigur Ros]</span></i></div>
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<i><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><br /></span></i></div>
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<i><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">[Vokal wanita alto surut, bunyi gitar dan drum perlahan. Hanya bunyi geseken cello yang kedengaran kuat. Irama masih lagi mellow]</span></i></div>
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<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;"><br /></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">Wahai Pari-pari Kayangan, </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">Manusia ini tidak pernah kenal erti cukup, </span></div>
<div style="text-align: justify;">
<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">Makin kau suap makin ia lapar, </span></div>
<div style="text-align: justify;">
<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">Manusia ini sudah tidak boleh diselamatkan lagi, </span></div>
<div style="text-align: justify;">
<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;"><br /></span></div>
<div style="text-align: justify;">
<i><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">[Vokal wanita alto menggila. BEAT. Musik perlahan-lahan masuk mengiringi gesekan cello dan vokal wanita alto] </span></i></div>
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<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;"><br /></span></div>
<div style="text-align: justify;">
<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">Malam ini Sang Pari-pari, </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">Kepergianmu akan aku tangisi dan ratapi,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">Agar air mataku ini bisa jadi sisa terakhir impianmu,</span></div>
<div style="text-align: justify;">
<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">Biar ia jadi harapan terakhirmu, </span></div>
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<br /></div>
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<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">Sang Pari-pari Kayangan,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">Tidurlah kau disitu,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">Amanlah kau disitu, </span></div>
<div style="text-align: justify;">
<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">Harapanmu akan ku genggam dan biar ia sebati dalam dirimu,</span></div>
<div style="text-align: justify;">
<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">Pesan terakhirmu akan menjadi buku hidupku, </span></div>
<div style="text-align: justify;">
<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;"><br /></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">"Cinta itu perasan yang amat indah sekali, manusia-manusia durjana ini yang biar ia di kotori" </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;"><br /></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">[Musik perlahan-lahan surut] </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;"><br /></span></div>
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<span style="color: red; font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">p.s. Aku punya impian untuk persembahkan ini di hadapan sekumpulan manusia durjana. Sama seperti apa yang di wasiatkan oleh Sang Pari-pari. </span></div>
Adam Arshadhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03372778296377168427noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-328565145555097386.post-61533958359329040092012-08-27T08:25:00.000-07:002012-10-27T07:17:29.289-07:00The Lost Words I17I<div style="text-align: center;">
<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">If you would just say </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;"><br /></span></div>
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<i><span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">"yes I know that you like me,</span></i></div>
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<i><span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">thank you, </span></i></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<i><span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">I like you too" </span></i></div>
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<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;"><br /></span></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">Gila aku pada kau ini akan </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">terubat dengan sendirinya,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;"><br /></span></div>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">Sungguh. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;"><br /></span></div>
<div style="text-align: justify;">
<span style="color: red; font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">p.s. Jangan bagi aku alasan untuk menyerah kalah. Aku masih belum melangkah ke medan perang. Segala pedang sudah aku asah tajam, segala busur sudah sedia untuk bidik sasaran. Semua hanya untuk bawa kau pulang Sayang. </span></div>
Adam Arshadhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03372778296377168427noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-328565145555097386.post-44453350433265669872012-08-11T10:20:00.001-07:002012-10-27T07:17:15.066-07:00[16] Neon.<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif; text-align: justify;">Aku lihat kau
sedang duduk membisu pada satu bangku yang ada di taman. Cahaya neon yang
menyinari bangku serta sebahagian taman permainan itu memberikan satu momen
romantis persis cerita romantik dalam filem, yang mungkin juga boleh bertukar
genre kepada thriller secara tiba-tiba. Bertemankan pekat malam yang sunyi sepi
kau duduk dibangku itu memandang ke langit. Sepi yang kadang-kadang mampu untuk
membunuh sesiapa sahaja. Hanya dengan tidak berbuat apa-apa. Aku tahu kau
sedang bersedih teringatkan dia.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;"><i><span lang="EN-US"><br /></span></i>
<i><span lang="EN-US">Aku tahu. <o:p></o:p></span></i></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;"><span lang="EN-US"><br /></span>
<span lang="EN-US">Aku mahu saja
pergi menemani kau duduk dibangku tanpa berbuat apa-apa. Hanya sekadar peneman
bila kau tiba-tiba mahu berbicara, supaya aku dengan senang hati dapat
mengucapkan pepatah ini,</span></span><br />
<span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;"><br /></span></div>
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<i><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">Ye, aku ada disini. Untuk kau. Untuk waktu sekarang dan
masa depan. <a href="http://www.blogger.com/blogger.g?blogID=328565145555097386" name="_GoBack"></a><o:p></o:p></span></i><br />
<i><span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;"><br /></span></i></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: justify;">
<span lang="EN-US" style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">Perlahan-lahan
aku mendekati kau. Benakku ligat berputar mencari topik-topik menarik yang bisa
aku jadikan sebagai topik perbualan kita nanti agar rasa canggung dan <i>awkward</i> akan lesap terus dari diri aku. Ah
persetankan topik perbualan, aku hanya mahu berada disisi kau. Menemani kau
mendongak langit mengira bintang-bintang yang berkelip samar. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;"><i><span lang="EN-US"><br /></span></i>
<i><span lang="EN-US">Hai you. Can I sit here?<o:p></o:p></span></i></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;"><span lang="EN-US"><br /></span>
<span lang="EN-US">Aku memang tidak
boleh duduk dekat dengan kau. Memang tidak boleh! Segala urat, otot, denyutan
nadi seakan bertukar menjadi gila serta-merta. Jantung dan nadi berlumba untuk
sampai ke garisan penamat. Peluh-peluh kecil muncul di dahi dan berkumpul di
ketiak. Perkara biasa<i>. Nervous</i> dan
gugup bila berada bersama kau adalah perkara normal dan mungkin boleh
digambarkan dengan satu situasi di mana kau berdiri dihadapan lautan manusia sambil
memegang obor olimpik yang seakan-akan mahu mati ditiup angin; atau mungkin
juga perasaan bila kau mahu melakukan terjunan bungee dan terjunan parachute
pada ketinggian yang melampaui akal kau. </span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;"><i><span lang="EN-US"><br /></span></i>
<i><span lang="EN-US">I suka you.</span></i><span lang="EN-US"> <i>I like you so much. <o:p></o:p></i></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;"><span lang="EN-US"><br /></span>
<span lang="EN-US">Pertama kali aku
terkilas akan kau pada waktu semester yang baru sahaja bermula, aku tahu kau
punya sesuatu yang istimewa. Tetapi aku cuba untuk tidak hiraukan perasaan aku
pada masa itu kerana aku sendiri sedang dalam emosi yang tidak stabil. Terperangkap
dan tergantung dalam komplikasi hubungan yang tidak pernah selesai. Aku selalu
memerhati kau dari jauh dan tatkala aku terlihat kerenah kau, aku pasti
tersenyum gila. </span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;"><i><span lang="EN-US"><br /></span></i>
<i><span lang="EN-US">Ah this is just a mere crush. Nothing serious. <o:p></o:p></span></i></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;"><span lang="EN-US"><br /></span>
<span lang="EN-US">Selang beberapa
tahun kemudian, <i>I found myself falling
deeper into the pit of affectionate love with you</i>. Ini bukan sekadar crush.
Crush tak akan mampu bertahan selama ini. Perasaan ini hidup dalam aku,semakin
hari semakin subur, tidak mungkin pernah padam. Aku suka kau. Ini serious. Tapi
aku masih tidak mampu menyeru kekuatan untuk melafazkan perkataan itu.
Perkataan itu boleh jadi magis, juga boleh bawa sial pada masa yang sama. </span></span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: justify;">
<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;"><span lang="EN-US"><br /></span>
<span lang="EN-US">Aku takut. </span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;"><span lang="EN-US"><br /></span>
<span lang="EN-US">Perlahan-lahan
aku duduk bersahaja di tepi kau. Kau senyum. Aku senyum kembali. Sepi
seakan-akan sengaja mahu bergurau pada malam itu. Tiada sekelumit bunyi
kedengaran kecuali bisikan angin yang singgah di dahan pokok serta laungan
octave si penghisap darah yang berlegar di telinga. <i>Pure annoyance. <o:p></o:p></i></span></span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: justify;">
<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;"><i><span lang="EN-US"><br /></span></i>
<i><span lang="EN-US">You, I like you. Very much. No kidding. <o:p></o:p></span></i></span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: justify;">
<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;"><span lang="EN-US"><br /></span>
<span lang="EN-US">Usai itu kau
bingkas bangun dan mengucup aku di dahi. Tiada sebutir kata yang terpacul dari
bibir kau. Adakah ini satu lagi komplikasi? Sialan, aku bikin malu diri sendiri
lagi. Aku mahu faham yang kau belum boleh melupakan yang sebelum ini. Juga
betapa sayangnya kau pada dia. Tapi aku juga tak mampu untuk melontar perasaan
ini jauh ke dasar hati. Perasaan bukan boleh di pendam, nanti tak pasal-pasal
aku meroyan seorang diri. Komplikasi sebegini memang jarang ada solusi. Jarang
sekali. </span></span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: justify;">
<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;"><i><span lang="EN-US"><br /></span></i>
<i><span lang="EN-US">I know. Thank you. Tunggu I boleh? <o:p></o:p></span></i></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;"><span lang="EN-US"><br /></span>
<span lang="EN-US">Dan kau berlalu
pergi meninggalkan aku sendiri bertempur sama hati dan perasaan. Langsung
kedengaran runut bunyi lagu <i>The Man Who
Can’t be Moved by The Script. <o:p></o:p></i></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;"><span lang="EN-US"><br /></span>
<span lang="EN-US">Celaka apa
perasaan ini?</span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;"><span lang="EN-US"><br /></span>
<span lang="EN-US" style="color: red;">p.s. Kerana kerja aku hanya menunggu bahagia tiba. </span></span></div>
Adam Arshadhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03372778296377168427noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-328565145555097386.post-7039897071291807842012-08-07T05:11:00.000-07:002012-08-07T05:11:57.583-07:00The Lost Word I15I<br />
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<span lang="SV"><span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Ke hadapan bintang jatuh,<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<br /></div>
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<span lang="SV"><span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Kau tinggi di langit,<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span lang="SV"><span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Bersinar di malam gelap,<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span lang="SV"><span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Ku rebah di bumi,<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span lang="SV"><span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Tersungkur di palu angin,<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<br /></div>
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<span lang="FI"><span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Kita berdua berbeza,<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span lang="FI"><span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Kita berdua sama,<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<br /></div>
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<span lang="SV"><span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Kau jauh di sana,<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span lang="SV"><span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Bergembira,<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span lang="SV"><span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Aku menanti di sini,<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span lang="SV"><span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Tersenyum sendiri,<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<br /></div>
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<span lang="SV"><span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Aku pernah cuba untuk pergi,<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<span lang="SV"><span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Mengundur diri,<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span lang="SV"><span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Tapi tidak sanggup diri ini,<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span lang="SV"><span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Bersendiri lagi,<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span lang="SV"><span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Biarkan aku bahagia,<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span lang="SV"><span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Walaupun hanya sekadar mimpi,<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span lang="SV"><span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Kita tak mungkin bersama,<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span lang="SV"><span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Kita tak mungkin bersatu,<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span lang="SV"><span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Tapi aku berpegang kepada satu,<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span lang="FI"><span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Kemungkinan itu,<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span lang="FI"><span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Akan ku tunggumu,<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span lang="FI"><span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Kehadapan bintang jatuh,<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<span lang="FI"><span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Hanya satu pintaku,<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span lang="FI"><span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Jatuhlah wahai bintang,<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span lang="FI"><span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Jatuh ke ribaku,<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span lang="FI"><span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Sinari malamku,<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span lang="FI"><span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Realitikan mimpiku</span><span style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span lang="FI" style="font-family: "Arial","sans-serif"; mso-ansi-language: FI;"><span style="color: red;"> p.s. Repost. Entiti berbeza tapi rasa yang sama. Yang tidak pernah mati. Rasa cinta. </span></span></div>
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<br /></div>Adam Arshadhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03372778296377168427noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-328565145555097386.post-86636127680659640622012-07-25T10:40:00.000-07:002012-07-25T10:40:10.290-07:00The Lost Word I14I<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Bilamana setiap kali</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">kau bertempur melawan hati,</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Tak mungkin kau akan pernah menang,</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><br /></span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Tak kira sedalam manapun pengalaman,</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Tak kira sekuat manapun pendirian,</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Tak kira sekukuh manapun perasaan,</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><br /></span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Tak mungkin kau akan pernah menang</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><br /></span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Kerna hati,</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Bila ia mulai suka sama satu entiti,</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Sepantas kerlipan mata,</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Segampang petikan jari,</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><br /></span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Bila ia sudah kata suka,</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Susah mahu kau tolak perasaan itu ketepi,</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><br /></span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Bertindak rasional?</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Payah amat</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><br /></span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Berfikir dengan bijak?</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Susah sangat</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><br /></span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Kerana hati hanya mampu merasa,</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">bukan persis otak yang mampu berfikir </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><br /></span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Jadi bila hati sudah cakap suka,</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Kau redhakan saja perasannya.</span><br />
<br />
<span style="color: red; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><i>p.s. PJLA, Kelas Muzik. </i></span><br />
<span style="color: red; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><i>p.s.s. The one who rhymes with you, I really really like you. </i></span>Adam Arshadhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03372778296377168427noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-328565145555097386.post-14409736949831494232012-04-05T08:09:00.000-07:002012-04-05T08:09:41.544-07:00The Lost Word I13I<div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><b>"Cinta menganugerahkan aku lidah dan air mata"</b></span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><br />
</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><i>Sayap-Sayap Patah, Kahlil Gibran.</i></span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><i><br />
</i></span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><i>Adaptasi dari Suffian Abas. </i></span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><i><br />
</i></span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><i><br />
</i></span></div><div style="text-align: justify;"><span style="color: red; font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif;">p.s. Menusuk tepat dengan segala macam interpretasi. </span></div>Adam Arshadhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03372778296377168427noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-328565145555097386.post-76816534565422626122012-02-19T08:01:00.000-08:002012-02-19T08:01:42.496-08:00Painted Dream I19I<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; text-align: justify;"><span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: "Times New Roman","serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;">I fell in love again with you last night. That inevitable feeling I tried to escape found its way home, to my heart. You were like a tiny little creature, fragile and delicate I felt like holding you in my hand and protect you from any malicious creature out there. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; text-align: justify;"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; text-align: justify;"><span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: "Times New Roman","serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;">I envisaged myself as your guardian angel. Equipped with all shining armour, a sword and of course, a scruffy yet impeccably flawless face similar to Ramueldo, the Italian heartthrob in the story The Cave of The Golden Flower. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; text-align: justify;"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; text-align: justify;"><span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: "Times New Roman","serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;">Now who could deny that face I would like to name a very <i>fuckable</i> one. Alright pardon the language. I just need to highlight that. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; text-align: justify;"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; text-align: justify;"><i><span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: "Times New Roman","serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;">How are you today? <o:p></o:p></span></i></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; text-align: justify;"><i><span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: "Times New Roman","serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;">Much better I think. But I’m running out of Polleney. <o:p></o:p></span></i></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; text-align: justify;"><i><span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: "Times New Roman","serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;">What the hell is that?<o:p></o:p></span></i></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; text-align: justify;"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; text-align: justify;"><span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: "Times New Roman","serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;">Apparently Polleney is a bottle of fish oil (catfish I think) consumed during fever. I had no idea until that point of time. A revelation indeed. I am just trying to be funny here. If it doesn’t work, pay no heed to that. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; text-align: justify;"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; text-align: justify;"><i><span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: "Times New Roman","serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;">Jadi ke benda tu?<o:p></o:p></span></i></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; text-align: justify;"><i><span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: "Times New Roman","serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;">Jadi. Mak suruh minum.<o:p></o:p></span></i></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; text-align: justify;"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; text-align: justify;"><span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: "Times New Roman","serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;">I fancied that. You were using just ‘Mak’ instead of ‘Mak I’ or ‘Mak saya’ or ‘My Mom’. I felt special. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; text-align: justify;"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; text-align: justify;"><i><span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: "Times New Roman","serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;">Orang minum semalam. It worked apparently. Still sore but much better than last night. <o:p></o:p></span></i></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; text-align: justify;"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; text-align: justify;"><i><span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: "Times New Roman","serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;">Orang</span></i><span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: "Times New Roman","serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;">. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; text-align: justify;"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; text-align: justify;"><span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: "Times New Roman","serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;">Another of my sheer weakness. My kryptonite. Every time you used that, I felt so dear, so close to you. I learnt that for the first time from you. As a matter of fact, every time people use that nowadays, my knees will tremble. My mind will directly go to you. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; text-align: justify;"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; text-align: justify;"><i><span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: "Times New Roman","serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;">Emm could you come and pick me up today? Nak beli benda tu lah. <o:p></o:p></span></i></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; text-align: justify;"><i><span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: "Times New Roman","serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;">Can you walk?Can you even get off from bed? <o:p></o:p></span></i></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; text-align: justify;"><i><span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: "Times New Roman","serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;">Will try. Have to sebab mak suruh org minum sampai demam kebah. <o:p></o:p></span></i></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; text-align: justify;"><i><span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: "Times New Roman","serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;">Stay in bed ok. I’ll get them for you.<o:p></o:p></span></i></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; text-align: justify;"><i><span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: "Times New Roman","serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;">Tapi orang tak nak susahkan you. <o:p></o:p></span></i></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; text-align: justify;"><span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: "Times New Roman","serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;">…..<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; text-align: justify;"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; text-align: justify;"><span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: "Times New Roman","serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;">I left the last message un-replied. One thing I am certain about you was that you were such a hardheaded person. If you say no, it means no. End of story. Any dispute and it will lead to a massive and robust argument. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; text-align: justify;"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; text-align: justify;"><span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: "Times New Roman","serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;">I have experienced it many times to a certain extent I have become immune to it. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; text-align: justify;"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; text-align: justify;"><span lang="EN-GB" style="color: red; font-family: "Times New Roman","serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;">p.s. This is turning into some lame love story isn’t? <o:p></o:p></span></div>Adam Arshadhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03372778296377168427noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-328565145555097386.post-49386139853022584262012-02-17T08:15:00.000-08:002012-02-19T07:56:55.273-08:00The Lost Word I12IHati rasa sesuatu<br />
Bilamana dalam gelap<br />
Engkau datang<br />
Menyeru,<br />
<br />
Seruanmu aku sahut,<br />
<br />
Walau betapa sakit,<br />
Walau betapa perit,<br />
<br />
Luka lama masih dalam<br />
Luka lama masih terpendam<br />
Manakan bisa aku lupa<br />
apa yang terjadi-<br />
antara kita,<br />
pada kita,<br />
Juga apa yang kau buat<br />
pada aku<br />
<br />
Kita pernah bersama<br />
merasai kemanisan bercinta<br />
Kita juga pernah bahagia<br />
atau<br />
Mungkin itu hanya perasaan aku saja?<br />
<br />
Tapi aku peduli apa,<br />
Asalkan kita pernah bahagia bersama<br />
<br />
Tapi sayang, apa kau buat<br />
aku tidak bisa lupa<br />
Kau tinggal aku merana,<br />
Kau buat aku gila,<br />
Kau pergi tanpa apa-apa<br />
alasan,<br />
Aku pula makin terkesan<br />
<br />
Aku cuba untuk lupa<br />
Bait-bait hidup yang kita<br />
pernah kongsi bersama,<br />
<br />
Cuba untuk membuang jauh segala rasa<br />
Tapi hanya sia-sia<br />
Bagai membuang masa<br />
<br />
Tapi,<br />
<br />
Aku tekad mahu menjaga<br />
hati aku yang hampir binasa<br />
remuk,<br />
hancur,<br />
tiada maknaAdam Arshadhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03372778296377168427noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-328565145555097386.post-7677741758901002772012-02-16T07:45:00.000-08:002012-02-17T08:01:16.158-08:00Painted Dream I18I<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; text-align: justify;"><span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: 'Times New Roman', serif; font-size: 10pt;">You fell sick. You caught a fever to be exact. I tried so hard not to give a heed after all that you did to me. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; text-align: justify;"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; text-align: justify;"><span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: 'Times New Roman', serif; font-size: 10pt;">But I failed, tremendously. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; text-align: justify;"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; text-align: justify;"><span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: 'Times New Roman', serif; font-size: 10pt;">I just couldn’t stay nonchalant towards you. I just couldn’t force my mind not to think of you. Images after images came bombarding my conscious mind. The more I tried to shut them, the more I tried to shoo them, the more they came knocking. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; text-align: justify;"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; text-align: justify;"><i><span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: 'Times New Roman', serif; font-size: 10pt;">You, I demam. And I haven’t eaten anything since morning. Tak larat :’(<o:p></o:p></span></i></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; text-align: justify;"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; text-align: justify;"><span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: 'Times New Roman', serif; font-size: 10pt;">I just needed to oblige. I went to DriveThru and got you a bowl of chicken porridge. You just sounded so weak and frail. Worry hit me hard. My conscience, for once, acted rather in a logical sense. It’s the right thing to do. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; text-align: justify;"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; text-align: justify;"><span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: 'Times New Roman', serif; font-size: 10pt;">I asked a friend to send me to your hostel. I braved through my utter cowardice that had always been inside of me. That little voice who’s adamant that you couldn’t do this or that. The one that always brings you down. That very night, I injured the little voice with my sheer determination and yes, conscience. I put on my halo and walked to your resident. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; text-align: justify;"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; text-align: justify;"><i><span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: 'Times New Roman', serif; font-size: 10pt;">I’m just gonna give you this porridge and leave.<o:p></o:p></span></i></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; text-align: justify;"><i><span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: 'Times New Roman', serif; font-size: 10pt;">That’s it. <o:p></o:p></span></i></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; text-align: justify;"><i><span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: 'Times New Roman', serif; font-size: 10pt;">Am doing this as a friend. <o:p></o:p></span></i></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; text-align: justify;"><i><span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: 'Times New Roman', serif; font-size: 10pt;">Not in the shoes of someone who’s fallen head over heels for you and just had his heart broken. <o:p></o:p></span></i></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; text-align: justify;"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; text-align: justify;"><span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: 'Times New Roman', serif; font-size: 10pt;">I put on my fake glasses. It felt like walking into the camp of your enemy in the middle of a battlefield. People could always recognize me. What would I do if someone saw me? What would I answer if someone I knew asked why I was there? I just couldn’t disclose my reason because they would talk shit once they knew that I was there for only one sole reason. You. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; text-align: justify;"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; text-align: justify;"><span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: 'Times New Roman', serif; font-size: 10pt;">I was encumbered with superfluous thoughts. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; text-align: justify;"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; text-align: justify;"><span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: 'Times New Roman', serif; font-size: 10pt;">I sat down at this one brick table we used to have ubiquitously around the hostel compound. I texted you saying I had arrived and waited for you. You were kinda shocked to hear that. I didn’t know whether the surprise tone was pre-planned or just plain sincere. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; text-align: justify;"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; text-align: justify;"><i><span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: 'Times New Roman', serif; font-size: 10pt;">Hi.<o:p></o:p></span></i></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; text-align: justify;"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; text-align: justify;"><span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: 'Times New Roman', serif; font-size: 10pt;">I was right. You seemed terrible. Pale and frail-looking. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; text-align: justify;"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; text-align: justify;"><i><span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: 'Times New Roman', serif; font-size: 10pt;">Hi. I got you chicken porridge. Nah amek ah.<o:p></o:p></span></i></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; text-align: justify;"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; text-align: justify;"><span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: 'Times New Roman', serif; font-size: 10pt;">And I handed it to you. You took it. Those eyes, that look you were wearing murdered me. Your eyes pierced through my heart as they screamed innocence. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; text-align: justify;"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; text-align: justify;"><i><span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: 'Times New Roman', serif; font-size: 10pt;">Makan tau. I need to go. I datang dgn member dia tunggu kat luar. Bye and get well soon. <o:p></o:p></span></i></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; text-align: justify;"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; text-align: justify;"><i><span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: 'Times New Roman', serif; font-size: 10pt;">I nak you teman I makan please. <o:p></o:p></span></i></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; text-align: justify;"><i><span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: 'Times New Roman', serif; font-size: 10pt;">Please or else I won’t eat. <o:p></o:p></span></i></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; text-align: justify;"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; text-align: justify;"><span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: 'Times New Roman', serif; font-size: 10pt;">You grabbed my hand and hold it tight. I just wanted to exit. I didn’t want to dwell on these forlorn feelings anymore. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; text-align: justify;"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; text-align: justify;"><span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: 'Times New Roman', serif; font-size: 10pt;">The grip of your hand holding mine was getting tighter, As if you were apologizing for things that you didn’t know you had done wrong. I looked straight into your eyes. Glistening and gleaming with hopeless yearning. Time halted, so that we could savour the moment. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; text-align: justify;"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; text-align: justify;"><span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: 'Times New Roman', serif; font-size: 10pt;">So I snatched the bowl of that chicken porridge from your hand...</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; text-align: justify;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman', serif; font-size: 10pt;">and opened it.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; text-align: justify;"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; text-align: justify;"><i><span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: 'Times New Roman', serif; font-size: 10pt;">Nah bukak mulut. <o:p></o:p></span></i></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; text-align: justify;"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; text-align: justify;"><span lang="EN-GB" style="color: red; font-family: 'Times New Roman', serif; font-size: 10pt;">p.s. I am forever cursed by your love. <o:p></o:p></span></div>Adam Arshadhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03372778296377168427noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-328565145555097386.post-76809144235936243012012-02-07T07:39:00.000-08:002012-02-07T07:39:36.526-08:0026 dan 29<span style="font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif;">"Kiranya aku mahu tanya, mahu kau jawab?"</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif;">"Bergantung kepada persoalan dan pertanyaan"</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><br />
</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif;">"Dan sekiranya aku ajukan persoalan, bisa kau jawab dengan jujur?"</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif;">"Itu juga bergantung kepada apa yang di tanyakan dan di soalkan"</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><br />
</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif;">"Bisa kau janji akan jujur?"</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif;">"Sayang, aku bisa jujur, tetapi bergantung kepada soalanmu. Jadi utarakan dulu, baru aku bisa tahu"</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><br />
</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif;">"Aku masih cinta kamu.Aku masih sayang kamu. Kamu tahu bukan?"</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif;">"Itu bukan persoalan mahu pertanyaan. Itu pernyataan yang jujur dari kamu. Jadi aku tidak tahu jawapannya apa. Maafkan aku"</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><br />
</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif;">"Tapi kamu tahu bukan akan kebenaran pernyataan aku itu?"</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif;">"Ya aku tahu. Aku mengerti. Aku rasa bertuah lagi. Kau terlalu baik sayang. Terlalu bijak bermain sama kata-kata. Terlalu manis akan ucapan yang kau tuturkan" </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><br />
</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif;">"Jadi?"</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif;">"Jadi?"</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><br />
</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif;">"Itu sahaja yang boleh kau ucapkan? Itu sahaja yang mampu kau reaksikan?"</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif;">"Habis apa lagi yang kau mahu sayang?"</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><br />
</span><br />
<span style="color: red; font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif;">p.s. "Aku hanya mahu kamu untuk aku seorang. Tidak mahu berkongsi. Aku tidak mampu menipu diri"</span>Adam Arshadhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03372778296377168427noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-328565145555097386.post-39740512402686275012012-02-02T05:57:00.000-08:002012-02-02T05:57:04.826-08:00Ya ini untuk KauAku bukan baru kenal kamu,<br />
Sudah lama<br />
Ada bertahun-tahun juga<br />
Atau kau sudah lupa?<br />
Sudah mulai alpa?<br />
<br />
Bukan marah yang aku rasa<br />
Cuma sedikit kecewa<br />
Pada sikap kau yang<br />
Kadang-kadang tidak bisa<br />
Aku ungkap dengan perasan<br />
Mahupun kata-kata<br />
<br />
Kenapa harus bohong?<br />
Kenapa harus sembunyi?<br />
Jika dia yang kau suka?<br />
Jika dia yang kau cinta?<br />
Jika dia yang selama ini<br />
Ada di depan mata?<br />
<br />
Tolong,<br />
Jujur sama aku<br />
Jangan lagi menipu<br />
<br />
<span style="color: red;">p.s. Aku tahu. I know things. </span>Adam Arshadhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03372778296377168427noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-328565145555097386.post-39687860037076710372012-01-31T05:28:00.001-08:002012-01-31T05:28:58.982-08:00The Lost Words I11II am obsessed of you,<br />
You are obsessed of him,<br />
We both are deserving fools.<br />
<br />
<span style="color: red;">p.s. Same and Lame. </span>Adam Arshadhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03372778296377168427noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-328565145555097386.post-15956611739726174382012-01-31T05:23:00.000-08:002012-01-31T05:23:13.001-08:00The Lost Words I10I<a href="http://www.blogger.com/goog_503189911"><span style="font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span style="background-color: #ebebeb; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px; text-align: left;">Tak semua kau rancang akan berlaku</span><br style="background-color: #ebebeb; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px; text-align: left;" /><span style="background-color: #ebebeb; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px; text-align: left;">Mungkin nasib tak menyebelahi aku</span><br style="background-color: #ebebeb; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px; text-align: left;" /><span style="background-color: #ebebeb; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px; text-align: left;">Entah mengapa engkau yang aku cinta</span><br style="background-color: #ebebeb; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px; text-align: left;" /><span style="background-color: #ebebeb; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px; text-align: left;">Mungkin lebih baik kau ku lepas saja</span><br style="background-color: #ebebeb; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px; text-align: left;" /><br style="background-color: #ebebeb; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px; text-align: left;" /><span style="background-color: #ebebeb; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px; text-align: left;">Ini tidak adil tidak adil baginya</span><br style="background-color: #ebebeb; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px; text-align: left;" /><span style="background-color: #ebebeb; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px; text-align: left;">Ini tidak adil tidak adil bagiku</span><br style="background-color: #ebebeb; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px; text-align: left;" /><span style="background-color: #ebebeb; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px; text-align: left;">Ini tidak adil</span><br style="background-color: #ebebeb; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px; text-align: left;" /><span style="background-color: #ebebeb; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px; text-align: left;">Untuk engkau bertanya jika ku mencintaimu juga</span><br style="background-color: #ebebeb; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px; text-align: left;" /><span style="background-color: #ebebeb; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px; text-align: left;">Tidak adil tidak adil baginya</span><br style="background-color: #ebebeb; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px; text-align: left;" /><br style="background-color: #ebebeb; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px; text-align: left;" /><span style="background-color: #ebebeb; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px; text-align: left;">Kau tak pernah cuba memahami aku</span><br style="background-color: #ebebeb; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px; text-align: left;" /><span style="background-color: #ebebeb; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px; text-align: left;">Cinta kau ucap tak pernah engkau tunjuk</span><br style="background-color: #ebebeb; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px; text-align: left;" /><span style="background-color: #ebebeb; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px; text-align: left;">Dan bila tiba saat ku kehilangan</span><br style="background-color: #ebebeb; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px; text-align: left;" /><span style="background-color: #ebebeb; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px; text-align: left;">Beban yang tak pernah cuba kau ringankan</span><br style="background-color: #ebebeb; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px; text-align: left;" /><br style="background-color: #ebebeb; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px; text-align: left;" /><span style="background-color: #ebebeb; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px; text-align: left;">Kau bukan milikku</span><br style="background-color: #ebebeb; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px; text-align: left;" /><br style="background-color: #ebebeb; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px; text-align: left;" /><span style="background-color: #ebebeb; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px; text-align: left;">Dan aku memang penakut</span><br style="background-color: #ebebeb; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px; text-align: left;" /><span style="background-color: #ebebeb; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px; text-align: left;">Mengakui cinta kepadamu</span><br style="background-color: #ebebeb; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px; text-align: left;" /><span style="background-color: #ebebeb; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px; text-align: left;">Seribu kali ku cuba ucapkan</span><br style="background-color: #ebebeb; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px; text-align: left;" /><span style="background-color: #ebebeb; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px; text-align: left;">Bila bersamamu</span><br style="background-color: #ebebeb; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px; text-align: left;" /><span style="background-color: #ebebeb; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px; text-align: left;">Kau bukan milikku</span><br style="background-color: #ebebeb; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px; text-align: left;" /><span style="background-color: #ebebeb; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px; text-align: left;">Dan engkau pun tahu</span><br style="background-color: #ebebeb; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px; text-align: left;" /><span style="background-color: #ebebeb; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px; text-align: left;">Kau bukan milikku</span></span> </a><br />
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</a></span></span><br />
<span style="color: red; font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span style="background-color: #ebebeb; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px; text-align: left;"><i><a href="http://www.blogger.com/goog_503189911">Penakut by Yuna </a></i></span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span style="background-color: #ebebeb; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px; text-align: left;"><a href="http://www.blogger.com/goog_503189911"><br />
</a></span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span style="background-color: #ebebeb; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px; text-align: left;"><a href="http://www.blogger.com/goog_503189911">Dear someone, I don't know why but when it comes to confessing my love to you, I turn into a total coward. </a></span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span style="background-color: #ebebeb; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px; text-align: left;"><a href="http://www.blogger.com/goog_503189911">I like you. </a></span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span style="background-color: #ebebeb; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px; text-align: left;"><a href="http://www.blogger.com/goog_503189911">But I know you like someone else. </a></span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span style="background-color: #ebebeb; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px; text-align: left;"><a href="http://www.blogger.com/goog_503189911"><br />
</a></span></span><br />
<div style="text-align: left;"><span style="color: red; font-family: Times, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span style="line-height: 18px;">p.s. The first person after Sayang. </span></span></div>Adam Arshadhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03372778296377168427noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-328565145555097386.post-89425893852398759432012-01-09T07:03:00.001-08:002012-01-09T07:03:12.377-08:00Painted Dream I17I<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; text-align: justify;"><span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: 'Times New Roman', serif; font-size: 10pt;">I was bottled up with anger and devastation. The thought that you might actually toy with my heart kept bombarding my mind, trying to knock my conscious down. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; text-align: justify;"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; text-align: justify;"><span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: 'Times New Roman', serif; font-size: 10pt;">I needed to avenge my feelings.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; text-align: justify;"><span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: 'Times New Roman', serif; font-size: 10pt;">I needed to pay back for what you’ve done.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; text-align: justify;"><span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: 'Times New Roman', serif; font-size: 10pt;">I needed to prove to you that you just couldn’t break my heart and get away with it easily.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; text-align: justify;"><span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: 'Times New Roman', serif; font-size: 10pt;">I was determined and unwavering.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; text-align: justify;"><span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: 'Times New Roman', serif; font-size: 10pt;">I just needed my revenge or I won’t be at ease.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; text-align: justify;"><span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: 'Times New Roman', serif; font-size: 10pt;">This heart kept on racing, pounding frantically every time the thought of you decided to sojourn my mind.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; text-align: justify;"><span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: 'Times New Roman', serif; font-size: 10pt;">For a closure, I just needed retribution.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; text-align: justify;"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; text-align: justify;"><span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: 'Times New Roman', serif; font-size: 10pt;">I swore that I wasn’t going to be attached with you either emotionally or physically. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; text-align: justify;"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; text-align: justify;"><i><span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: 'Times New Roman', serif; font-size: 10pt;">If it’s a fling game you wanted, worry not sayang, I’ll serve it to you cold and fresh.<o:p></o:p></span></i></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; text-align: justify;"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; text-align: justify;"><span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: 'Times New Roman', serif; font-size: 10pt;">I made a truce with myself that I was going to make you feel special and one of a kind. I was going to plant the belief that you had me on my knees, willing to sacrifice my life for you. I was going to make you belief that I was your slave for love because once you had those planted in your conscious mind; it would be easier to tear you apart. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; text-align: justify;"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; text-align: justify;"><span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: 'Times New Roman', serif; font-size: 10pt;">I was going to serve you with the taste of your own game.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; text-align: justify;"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; text-align: justify;"><span lang="EN-GB" style="color: red; font-family: "Times New Roman","serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;">p.s. You shouldn’t have toyed with my feelings because they were all genuine. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; text-align: justify;"><br />
</div>Adam Arshadhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03372778296377168427noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-328565145555097386.post-42505066914228519142012-01-09T06:59:00.000-08:002012-01-09T06:59:55.934-08:00The Lost Words I9IBilamana aku seringkali<br />
tersipu-sipu malu<br />
merah padam<br />
kedua pipiku<br />
lewat terpandang akan<br />
profile picture BBM mu,<br />
<br />
Harus kamu tahu<br />
aku ini sedang<br />
suka sama kamu<br />
sedang asyik<br />
di buai rindu<br />
<br />
Usah kamu ragu<br />
aku ini memang sedang<br />
mabuk sama kamu<br />
<br />
<span style="color: red;">p.s. Ini puisi terdesak, desperate mahu perhatian. </span>Adam Arshadhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03372778296377168427noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-328565145555097386.post-65300366770686069572012-01-08T06:46:00.000-08:002012-01-08T06:46:28.717-08:00Painted Dream I16I<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; text-align: justify;"><span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: "Times New Roman","serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;">You know something Acad?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; text-align: justify;"><span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: "Times New Roman","serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;">Your Sayang has been awfully and continuously flirting with me.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; text-align: justify;"><span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: "Times New Roman","serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;">What a sweet talker this person is. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; text-align: justify;"><span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: "Times New Roman","serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;">Your Sayang actually asked if we could be an item. Could you believe that?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; text-align: justify;"><span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: "Times New Roman","serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;">I haven’t answered it yet, I wanna know your say in this.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; text-align: justify;"><span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: "Times New Roman","serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;">Should I say yes?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; text-align: justify;"><span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: "Times New Roman","serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;">I’m sorry but I couldn’t help it.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; text-align: justify;"><span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: "Times New Roman","serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;">When your Sayang talks, sugar pours out of the mouth and it mencurah-curah ke ladang gandum lalu jadilah koko krunch. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; text-align: justify;"><span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: "Times New Roman","serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;">Kau faham kan?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; text-align: justify;"><span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: "Times New Roman","serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;">I’m stuck in between and I hate this feeling. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; text-align: justify;"><span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: "Times New Roman","serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;">I don’t want to disappoint you because I know the affection you harbour towards this person.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; text-align: justify;"><span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: "Times New Roman","serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;">But I don’t know what to do either. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; text-align: justify;"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; text-align: justify;"><span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: "Times New Roman","serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;">~<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; text-align: justify;"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; text-align: justify;"><span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: "Times New Roman","serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;">How could you do this to me?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; text-align: justify;"><span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: "Times New Roman","serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;">I told you many times I like you, in fact I have told you countless-ly I love you.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; text-align: justify;"><span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: "Times New Roman","serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;">Is that hard to understand? <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; text-align: justify;"><span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: "Times New Roman","serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;">Please if you don’t like me you don’t have to treat me like I’m your freaking boyfriend!<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; text-align: justify;"><span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: "Times New Roman","serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;">What you do is making me consume the idea that we are an item.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; text-align: justify;"><span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: "Times New Roman","serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;">A happy couple.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; text-align: justify;"><span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: "Times New Roman","serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;">The fuck with all those good night kisses and wishes; they were all fake.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; text-align: justify;"><span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: "Times New Roman","serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;"> You are fake! <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; text-align: justify;"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; text-align: justify;"><span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: "Times New Roman","serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;">~<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; text-align: justify;"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; text-align: justify;"><span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: "Times New Roman","serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;">Sayang kenapa macam ni? <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; text-align: justify;"><span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: "Times New Roman","serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;">Acad kenapa dengan you ni?<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; text-align: justify;"><span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: "Times New Roman","serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;">You buat I sedih tau.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; text-align: justify;"><span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: "Times New Roman","serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;">Jangan la macam ni.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; text-align: justify;"><span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: "Times New Roman","serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;">Kita kan kawan. <o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; text-align: justify;"><span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: "Times New Roman","serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;">Please jangan macam ni.<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; text-align: justify;"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal" style="margin-bottom: 0.0001pt; text-align: justify;"><span lang="EN-GB" style="color: red; font-family: "Times New Roman","serif"; font-size: 10.0pt;">p.s. Kawan? Kau kata aku ni kawan? After all those shitty ideas and hopes you shoved into my mind. Kawan my arse! <o:p></o:p></span></div>Adam Arshadhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03372778296377168427noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-328565145555097386.post-16852164179791277322012-01-03T08:29:00.000-08:002012-01-03T08:29:27.872-08:00The Lost Words I8I<span style="font-size: large;">I miss us.</span><br />
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<span style="color: red;">p.s. Agaknya bila perasaan akan bisa berputik? </span>Adam Arshadhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03372778296377168427noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-328565145555097386.post-11024882857392909372012-01-02T01:44:00.000-08:002012-01-02T01:44:45.593-08:00HelloMotoWhy hello there 2012,<br />
Surprise me<br />
as I'm going to leave you unexpected.<br />
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So yeah 2011,<br />
Myriads of memories<br />
you too shall be left unattended.<br />
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<span style="color: red;">p.s. Happy New Year everyone.</span>Adam Arshadhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03372778296377168427noreply@blogger.com0