[DearDiary#10]

It's one of those nights which you feel so hopeless.
When you contemplate on all the things that you've done.
When you realize how suck and a sore loser you are.
When you feel like ripping out your heart and left the chest open, bleed.
When you feel like a part of you is missing.
When you think that you're a fool for believing.
When you feel ashamed of what you did.
When you feel like murdering someone.
When you feel like throwing yourself out of the balcony of your seventh floor home.
When you feel like kicking yourself right in the arse.


What you can do to ease the unfathomable feelings is just cry.
:'(


p.s. You can go fuck yourself!

Dear

Adam Nur Arshavin.

Your future Papa misses you so bad.

p.s. This seriously impacts me so subtly deep

Garh!

p.s. I'm bored.

[Dear Diary#9]

You say you'll know when you really find the one
But it's hard to tell with the damage that's been done
But id like to say that it's your fault
But I know better
Cuz' I'm a fool to think you'll wait around forever

Maybe I Could have loved you
Maybe I could have shown
That I still do care about you
More than you could know
Don't say it's too late to try
To make it right

Joseph Adam Jonas, 

To make it right.

p.s. I don't intend to right the wrong, let it be wrong.

[Call Me Weirdo#4]

photo's taken here

Just like how I'm feeling this few weeks, ugly

I need to shop and find my inner freak and replenish my freaky attitude.

p.s. I miss how people will look at me oddly when I walk.

[The Reason Why I love Them, especially Him]

Watch it here.

Love.

<3

p.s. It brought tiny tears, at certain time. 

[Simply because..]

You've been silent.

I know.

Why?

Simply because I enjoy the silence. 

Liar!

It's up to you to believe it or not.

Can I kiss you?

No, you can't.

WHY???

Simply because I don't want you too.

A hug?

Nah ah ah.

Pffttttt!

Simply because I don't wanna get attached. 

I miss you.

Oh Thank you.

Don't you miss me.

Nope.

What the hell?

Simply because I don't.

Oke Bye, see you later.

Bye,

Oh I don't want  to see you 'before or later'.

I HATE YOU!

Haha Thanks. That's what I'm trying to do.

p.s. Nice one is it?