[Dear Diary#18]

How would you live your life is you were granted second chance? 

p.s. My prayers are on you my friend.

[Call Me Weirdo#9]

I have forgotten how to sleep properly.

Again.

p.s.It's the time of the season.

[Sounds]

I'm currently high on this song.

Freaking addictive and it makes you wanna shake it shake it.

p.s. Let's turn off the light and get nasty!

[Love and Lust]

It’s simple because this is not a rocket science.

What is love?

Love is the feeling when you care about someone and when you are willing to do anything to make him/her happy. Love is when you experience the uneasiness, like a family of butterflies keeps hovering in your tummy and you are adamant that when you poop, butterflies will fly gleefully from your arse. Love is when your knees suddenly fail to function properly whenever your love one emerges out of the blue. Love is when you touch your lover’s hands, you feel electrocuted. Love is when you make faces because he/she ignores you, even for a minute. Love is when you feel your other half’s presence just by shutting your eyes to sleep. Love is a feeling of admiration, a sense of togetherness, a craving to be belonged to somebody. Love is when you’d be smitten even by the littlest act done by your lover. Love is when you want to protect your love one from any danger. Love is the gallant feeling when you look at your lover’s face and how his/her smile just made your day. Love is when you are willing to stay up late at night just to make sure he/she is online. Love is the feeling of uncertainty of yourself, whether you are good or perfect enough for your other half. Love is seeing the imperfections of your lover and thought he/she couldn’t be any perfect. Love is when you see your lover’s message and you smile sheepishly to yourself. Love is when you want to impress your love one and you feel upset because you didn’t meet his/her expectation. Love is when you’re willing to be hurt rather than seeing your love one being hurt. Love is when you look at the sky and all you smile and you don’t have any idea why. Love is just love and the list goes on and on.

On the other hand, 

What is lust?

lust is just solely sex. You want to pounce on your partner aggressively you enjoy every bits of him/her whining and asking for more. Lust is when you meet someone and you’ll end up waking up on his/her bed the morning after. Lust is when your smile because your partner send you message saying I miss your cock or your pussy. Lust is just lust.

Sexual intercourse is just a bonus, a supplement, a spice in the relationship you’re having with your other half.

Remember when someone says he/she loves you, it doesn’t mean they want to have sex with you, It can mean otherwise but that would happen in some rare occasions but I bet currently speaking, it’s not considered being ‘rare’ anymore.

Losing virginity and proving that you have lost your purity is a trending topic nowadays, people are proud to be one. 

And when you are having sex with someone, it doesn’t mean he/or she loves you. They do, they just love the taste of your penis or your vagina or your arse. 

p.s. Just saying

[Life]

Life's been tremendously great for the past few weeks.
Been travelling a lot and enjoying myself to the limit. 


The first trip was Bagan Lalang and Sepang Gold Coast Golden Palm Trees . We went there solely for one mission. To fly kites and it was accomplished. Our kite (share it with Moja) was flying high with its gay-ish look. Seriously the colours are really upholding and promoting gay pride. 

Yes, it's THIS gay.

The second destination was Broga Hills. It was phenomenal. The hike to reach the 1st peak was about 1 hour.That was the 1st stop, don't get me started on the journey coming from Shah Alam. We started the trip at ungodly wee hour in the morning. The hike was inexplicably adventurous. The route to reach the 1st steep was so goddamn steep one of my friends had to halt and rest there because he was afraid of the height, also due to him wearing his Crocs which was very slippery. Put that misery aside, the vistas were breath-taking. The breeze was very chilly too you want to lay down on the lanky grass regardless of them being grass, which of course itchy! DUH. We did proceed to the 2nd peak but halted because my friends were exhausted. I was jumping and running in gusto like a dog, eh no no, more like a cute child. Here are some of the pictures, 

The 3rd trip was Tiara Beach Resort, Port Dickson. Some of my 'teachers' friends invited me to tag along.I saw opportunity of meeting my little vixen and yes I agreed, just to be enlightened that my little vixen wasn't joining.It was a bummer, a real huge bummer yet I comforted myself that I'll be having the grandest fun there. It turned out to be a really enjoyable one. We laughed until our tummy hurts and I got the chance to find some solace at the resort. Went to PD and built a huge sand castle, no scratch that, it's an enormous sand mansion. After that, we sang our lung out by the beach, it was aesthetic.The guys were crazy, yelling and singing tune-less songs. At the resort, we sat by the pool and enjoying the picturesque view of the crystal-clear but full-of-chlorine water. I slept on the couch under the shady coconut tree by the pool and pretended I was somewhere over the seas.It was a gallant moment. 

Oh next stop is Paramore bebeh! I'm still indecisive about colouring my hair red. Maybe I'll opt for a softer colour. Will post the pictures later.

p.s. Good times are when you're with family and friends doing things that you like 

[Whispered Words]

When I see you happy,
I am beyond content,


When I see you forlorn,
I really want to hold your hands and give you a cuddle,


When I see those sad eyes,
I am heartbroken,


Remember every time I pretend I don't see you,
I am afraid actually,
Fear of those feelings to come knocking my mind,
Fear of those feelings to come eat my heart,


It doesn't mean I ignore you because I loathe you,
I loathe myself for for being weak,


p.s. The Driveway

[PhotoEntry:Ole Ole Bali and Sepang Gold Coast]

p.s. More to come. Great times, great time :D

[Dear Diary #17]

Which one would you prefer?
The States or The Kingdom?
I really want to pursue my Master abroad
Am thinking to enrol in two or more Masters.
I just need to escape,
Far away,
Finding my own new solace,
or a sojourn.


p.s. Craving.

[Dear Diary#16]

My little sweet hearbreaker,

I'm heartless at the moment because my heart has been stolen by this cute little vixen.

I freaking miss her already.

p.s. Happy moments. 

[Call Me Weirdo#8]

Ann Ward

6'2''

Was dubbed by some people who called her Giant.

Photographed aesthetically and awkwardly astounding.

I'm kinda awkward myself which explains the interest. 

 

Kayla Ferrel

Lesbian, a hot one.

Constantly called queer by some people.

Undoubtedly beautiful and she has red hair.

I have fetish over people with red hair.

p.s. Beauty comes from all shapes and forms.